So sink or swim-- I'm diving in

Ohhh how I wish life were a little more exciting sometimes. I wish something awesome would happen. Something unexpected. Or more like something that will trigger MANY awesome things. I want to have fun. I want to be creative. I want to run. I want to drive. This is why I need a job. Here is a brief list of some things I'd like to do this summer: Go on a picnic, Go to the lake, Go drive until I can't anymore, Ride horses in the sunset, meet some new and awesome people... Father, will You at least bring a little excitement into my life?

I am learning to trust God. Yes, I know...I've been through this so many times before. Is it the cycle of faith? Do we HAVE to relearn lessons like this all the time? I think we need to relearn them to grasp how trustworthy and huge our God really is. We tend to forget these things over time...
Romans 11:33-36 says:
"Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable his judgments, and his paths beyond tracing out! "Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?" "Who has ever given to God, that God should repay him?" For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be the glory forever! Amen."
Oh the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God. Doesn't that just make you feel so...good? That God is wise, and all-knowing? His judgments are unsearchable. Who can tell God what to do? God is restoring all things back to himself. He is making all things whole again. The path may be bumpy, but we can rest assured that our God is wise and all-knowing. Also... Romans 8 pretty much states who we are in Christ. We are conquerors. no...it says we are MORE than conquerors (verse 37) because Christ loved us. Also, we did not receieve a spirit that makes us a slave again to fear. No, instead we received the Spirit that makes us the very sons of God! Because we are sons of God, we are also co-heirs with Christ. This means we share in his sufferings, but we also share in his glory (verses 15-17). Romans 8:28 is what we hold on to. In all things, God works for our good. God is for us! God loves us, God cares about us. The small things. The details. God is a details kind of God. He's so personal. So... (verse 31) if God is for us...who could ever be against us? Verse 32 says that God spared his only Son for us. It also says that if we are of that worth to God, will he not also give us all things? God is for our good. God is FOR us!

Father, help me to build others up with encouragement and love instead of tearing them down out of my insecurities. You're trustworthy, but trusting You still takes faith. Sink or swim, I'm diving in. I trust that you have this all figured out already. You're just walking alongside me until these things are revealed to me, but you have complete foreknowledge. I trust your eyes. And your hands- You're preparing the way for me.