You dance over me...

So- God continues to amaze me. He destroys me, then restores me, fills my cup and equips me with a song of praise (Psalm 40:3) and turns me around and sends me out to venture in a broken world. Now, able to relate to broken people, I am equipped with a new theme song and a banner for war that DECLARES hope and that God is a god of Restoration. With my life as a PRIME example, I can so much more relate to a broken world but oh- I have a story. I have a song. And it declares the love, kindness, goodness, and faithfulness of God. If I were a light to the world, but I did not understand the brokeness of the world, how is that ever useful? But not only are nonbelievers shown a life lived victoriously with God, but the church is also once more reminded of the beauty of grace. God took me in my brokeness, in my disaster and He used it for the advancing of His kingdom. For GOOD. And by used it, I mean He consumed it into something that is now beautiful. He used every single drop of it. Completely. And He used it all to the full. What is this GRACE that wants to make beauty of my mess? That God would meet me so much more than halfway. That He would meet me on the disaster sight where my destruction lies. That he would help me pick up the pieces one by one and put them back together again. THAT is grace. I am utter dust. That God would be forever faithful to me. Continually. Time and time again, EVEN when Im hardly faithful back. The very hairs on my head are NUMBERED! God is madly in love with every way that he created me (And he thinks I'm a catch, alright!) And I am NEVER ONCE defined by my weaknesses, my shortcomings, or my failures. Wow, what?! THAT, my friends, is grace. Praise the Lord. I am SO undeserving of this great stuff.

Psalm 107 says Let the redeemed of the LORD tell their story! Verse 43 says Let us ponder the loving deeds of the LORD. ...Lets just ponder them!

God breaks me to make me more useful and He makes me more beautiful every time he uses me. By the grace of the Lord I have been made beautiful.
I don't deserve this grace, this Fatherly love! I know your character, God. Therefore I will declare your lovingkindness in the present and claim your faithfulness in the future. I KNOW who my God is and therefore I know he has GOOD THINGS in store for me.
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So I don't even know what to think or how to wrap my brain around this. I am just yet...dust. The dust of this earth. Which is a BEAUTIFUL planet, bu it isn't even big enough to be considered dust in this universe. God, how can you live in everything so BIG and in everything so SMALL at the same time? This is absurd. I am one in 7 billion people on this planet, yet I am fearfully and wonderfully made in your image. You care about me SO intimately, so personally. You came to the earth-to be dust-to die a painful death, for DUST. To be our savior. You turned your ear to s... WHAT? And now I'm just sitting here watching you in the lightning. So big, so small. So loving, so involved. SOOO personal.

Psalm 33:15
He fashions their hearts individually,
He considers all of their works
(He intimately involves himself in all their works)

Who is this God? Who puts his Spirit in ME, dust. And who cares about me SO intimately...I can't wrap my mind around this love. He's so in love with who I am. He made my personality so specifically. Lightning is so amazing.
Oh, the power of the Lord.

"You dance over me, while I am unaware...
You sing all around, And I never hear the sound.
Lord, I'm amazed by You
Lord, I'm amazed by You
Lord, I'm amazed by You...
How You love me."